I know I haven’t posted here for a while but I thought this would be a good time to explain what’s going on. University – the sole reason to why I haven’t been posting recently. Most of my concentration is focused on trying to get the best out of my degree. I want to achieve a first in what I believe I am good at. I love making films, more specifically, documentaries. I want to be a documentary filmmaker, a documentarian, a director. I want to be successful. I think everyone aspires to be successful in what they do. Ever since I started studying media, I had visions of becoming known, famous even. A lot of people have said that being famous is overrated. That may be the case but I like the attention. To be honest, typing this out is strange to me but it’s the truth. When I was in school, I never was the class clown or the overly smart kid, I was the quiet one who never spoke a word and the person no one remembers. I wouldn’t say I’m arrogant or cocky or an attention-seeker now, I would say that I have become a more confident individual over time. I’ve started to believe in myself more. I do have bad days of course; less productivity, questioning myself and what I am even doing with my life but that’s life. Not every day is rainbows, sunshine, and butterflies.
What I’m trying to say is that I want to make this blog something more. I am the worst for having long periods of no productivity. I believe that I have “no time to write a blog post or create a video” but in reality, I do a lot of the time. I guess you could say I am really bad at managing my time. I’m late-riser and a late-sleeper – possibly the worst combination. I’m trying to change that. I want this blog to be a place where I can open up, not feel judged for what I have to say and a place for me to blurt everything out that is on my mind. My mind can be a crazy place at times – believe me, you don’t want to be in my head. When I don’t have someone to talk to, I want this to be my therapy. I want writing to become therapeutic for me, a stress reliever. University is a big ball of stress and it’s only going to get bigger, especially now I am in final year with a dissertation on my back. If you’re reading this, I don’t know what you’ve just read because I’ve just rambled on. This feels right. I’m going to keyboard bash any thoughts that I have on my mind, whatever they may be. I can’t predict what’s going to come out but you’ll have to wait and see.